Omg, tearing up rn. I do have a problem of self-confidence. I used to fool myself thinking that I’m just very humble, but the ugly truth is, I rarely feel any pride or complete satisfaction in what I do. I kinda know where this originated, and I really wish I could get over it and be as proud (in healthy and non-annoying levels ofc) as I see people around me being. I’ve been making some design stuff outside tumblr recently, and people have had really positive reactions to it. What annoys me is how these compliments do nothing to me. I mean, I get happy ofc, but they don’t boost my ego or self-confidence at all. There’s always this ‘I’m not good enough’ feeling a haunting me. I’m aware that this affects not only me professionally, but also personally and socially. I honestly don’t know what to do. It’s like I want to change, but I’m afraid to become the complete opposite.
Thank you for your words. <3
But… I’m so boring! K, here we go:
- I love castles. Obviously resent their symbolism and pretty much everything they stood for, but can still see their beauty and mysticism. It’s kinda like seeing beauty in the most tragic places.
- Same goes for old houses and ruins.
- I love sunrises.
- I never boarded a plane in my life. Sad, I know.
- One of my favorite relaxing ~rituals is to go to YT and discover new music. I can do this for hours.
So yesterday I found out that my bb bro’s new gf watches tvd. I panicked because the details that would follow could define my impression of her forever. Basically she hates Stefan, loves Damon and Elena and Delena. Suffice it to say that I later told my brother not to fuck it up because she was a keeper.
1 year ago —23 notes
•no but she's nice overall•it was pretty awesome tho because she's the first person I ever discussed tvd irl•and she shares my opinions/interests•yay•relevant post•personal
spooky; that’s exactly where i’m at right now. i’m just lying in bed watching psych haha.
I’m trying to find a good movie to watch rn. But it’s so stupid because I’m finally home, on my desktop where I have pretty much everything (PS, caps, etc) and I just don’t feel like opening it, after I’ve been anxious all week to get back to it. -___-
1 year ago —13 notes
•personal•I just know I'll never delete•I may stay away•but I never really leave•x)
Hey guys! So, I’m alive! But…
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